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| "One must cut before filing, carve before polishing."
Well, hey guys, long time... It seems everyone has somewhat converted to myspace- its cool but I like my xanga... Anywho... Lets see, there has been a lot of things going on in my life lately, that (even though some of them have been not so good) I'm thankful for, because now I can see where there was a problem and now that-that step is over I can begin to fix all that has been wrong. Dang I'm listening to a good song right now... But ya... I've been sad and completely out of it for so long, I was so ready for this... But I feel like I'm walking into a dark room, all the lights off, and I can feel things around me, but I'm not sure what it is/ they are, Oblivious to all that may come at me, but I'm not scared just anticipating the change( but there is still the feeling of knowing how easy it would be to run back into the other room that i've been in for so long, and is familier to me, but I have to fight that cuz it would ruin me.
I do apologize for being so vauge with my entires, I just feel here I can say what I feel but I don't have to be too persice, because I always have this feeling that I have to protect myself and what I say... And sorta I just kinda talk to myself in a way, but Its just that others read it... I dunno..If that makes anysense... maybe...
Anyway- about a boy... well its over, it has been, but then again it never was, or was it, or was it just me???
I'm satisfied with certain things I've figured but, then there are other things that don't make sense.. prolly to anyone.
Well just thought I'd finally update... but I'm not sure if anyone will read this, because everyone seems to be on myspace... ?
With Love
< Shauna > 
"When it comes to three, they have to go thirsty." | | |
| Everything will work itself out.
"Live as if you'll never be hurt and Love as if you've never been hurt."
I'm turning my frown upside down, cuz thats what the hell I fell like doing. So there, ha, little boys and girls,( only those who have been the source of my sadness) you have no control over my emotions anymore! Mwa!!! Kiss my grass! I'm tired of being sad, so after much persuasion of the loved ones, I say I stop being so nice to you poopheads. Things have gotten better for the most part.Yay, I hope it stays this way.
But (some) people are still awful, they need to know it! And maybe soon Karma will send them a memo. | | |
| You know from now on, I will never again dare to do what I feel. Nothing is right, and even tho it is not my falt, I can't help but blame myself for everything that has and will take place. Somethings got to give. And if it doesn't, I'm afraid I might have to. People are awful. They should know it.  | | |
| So, how is it that I don't do anything, and I still screw things up????I hate boys sometimes. They think we're confusing, whateva!! 
So, I guess I should fill eveyone in, but I can't be too specific, in fear of wandering eyes, idk, i guess i'll be blunt about it, even tho... 
There was ( is, might still be??) a guy that I liked very much, (and blah yadda), I let myself be vulnerable( er not sure if thats the right word,, open with how I felt) and got my feelings hurt. ((What else is new...)) But you see, there is more to the story, a hella lot more, more than any one else knows about but me and him. And to add to the rest of the cast of crap there is: another girl, prolly two, and a few other guys, oh and don't forget his best friend! This should be very interesting,( and not in a good way) I'm stressing so bad, and the sad part is I have no one to spill the whole thing to( besides little snipits of it) ( listen to me, that totally isn't even a word) I don't know what the crap I'm talking about. I'll end up deleting this later, cuz it makes absolutely no sense, and... I'm Sorry eveyone... I have been so crazy lately...
I Hope Everyone Had A Great Thanksgiving!!! And Are Having A Great Break!!! I LUB You All, See You Later... Smile! | | |
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